Raising children

While raising my kids, I was always afraid of screwing them up. And in someways I may have actually screwed them up, although I desperately didn't want to. I remember always trying to think of ways to bond with them. I thought it would be best to try to think of things that I needed when I was a child growiing up that I didn't receive. And things that did happen to me that wasn't good for me. I realized that my parents were probably just as confused as me. I know that while growing up I really needed more comunication with them. I needed them to explain little things to me. Like show me how to cook or let me help cook. Take me grocery shopping. I usually just stayed at home. I almost feel like they just let me hang in limbo kind of. I had absolutely now worldly clue about anything. And I was a very nieve child. I believed everything people told me. I also got my feelings hurt very easily. Believe it or not, I was an introvert. I was terrified of talking to people. And I didn't have any idea of how the real world really was. I just followed other people and did what they did whether it was right or wrong. I remember being very depressed and sad all of the time in my preteen. I had very low self esteem and low self confidence. I thought I was ugly and hated by everyone. I don't want my children to go through what I did. So as a parent I tried think of what could have made a difference in my childhood. After all your only a kid once. I wanted my kids to have a fun childhood and I wanted to teach them things that would make them wiser growing up. So I tried to give them lot's of attention and make them feel important and worth much more than just a kid to be ignored.