Money Stresses me out....or rather the lack there of!

I'm off work today, not by choice but my Bosses great idea. Funny I don't remember signing up for a part time job...He said there's nothing for me to do. He needs to get the survey guys out in the field today to survey some topo so I can have something to do tomorrow on my AutoCAD. That's what I do, AutoCAD. I'm an AutoCAD Drafter for a Survey Company. I'm not very happy about missing a day of work. Don't get me wrong it's nice to relax a bit. But how can I relax? I mean really relax? But I had to use a vacation day or not get paid. And I'm not in any position financially to not get paid for a full day of work. Now I sit at home looking at the damn computer trying to figure out how I can make extra money because my regular job isn't paying the bills. Not that I'm high maintenance or anything. I actually have cheap bills and still can't survive half the time and ya know it's always stressful to be broke but it's worse to be broke and have time on your hands to worry about it and not feel like your doing anything at all to contribute to putting your bank account in the blue instead of the red. This sucks! Being broke really really sucks. I have never known and probably never will know how it feels to always have money in the bank. To actually knows what it feels like for my money to last more than just payday to payday and hell my money never lasts that long anyway. I'm usually broke way before next payday. I've had to take vacation days not to long ago just because I didn't have the money to put gas in my car to make it to work. Then when payday came around I had to hold my breath and pray my car made it to work and then to the bank to cash my check. Isn't that sad??? I had to stay home on a Wednesday and Thursday then coast to work on and empty tank Friday just to get my paycheck. Oh how I wish I could feel safe and secure with lots of money in the bank. I guess that's just about everyones dream. I'm probably not the exception here. But this is my blog so I get to whine if I want to lol. Just saying......wouldn't it be nice to have your bills come automatically out of your bank every month and just reconcile your checkbook at the end of the month without worrying if you have the money in the bank to cover them? My dream is to have that and not have to work for someone else. Maybe work for myself over the internet and own a large motorhome to travel in and just to my work while I'm on the road traveling from state to state. Stopping at interesting places staying for a while and then moving on to the next. Hopefully my son's and their girlfriends would be with me- I'd hate to be without my sons. It's more fun to share wonderful events with the people you love. I wonder if there's anyone out there in cyber space that gets to do things like this and if they do, what do they do for a living so that they can afford such luxeries. what can I do on the net to afford such luxuries???? I'd love to hear some stories of riches at least then I can feel good for other people.

YAWWWWWNNNN.....rainy days make me sleepy

All weekend we had gorgeous weather in my hometown, it was warm and sunny just beautiful. So I did a little shopping ran a few errands, but mostly stayed hom just piddling, cleaning and relaxing. The weekend seemed to go by very quickly (unfortunately).
Monday morning- Yuck, the alarm went off way to early. I jumped up, looked at it as if it was crazy for waking me up so damn early! What the heck was it thinking???
Oh well, I climbed out of bed rubbed my eyes and began the weekday ritual of getting ready for work with the news playing on the tv. "They're saying we're in for some bad weather today I had better hurry up" I hate driving in the rain and everybody else acts like they're driving on ice. Talk about road rage OUCH! I made it to work ok and on time with with little problems. Now I sit at my desk listening to the thunder and rain outside. Man I'd like to be curled up at home back sleeping in my nice cozy bed. But unfortunately they won't pay me for that. Am I the only one that would rather it be raining on the weekend so I can be lazy in bed all day?

Forgetting something?

I remember back when I was really young....oh say....16,17, maybe even a little older, I was a very forgetfull youth. Eventually people started to pick on me for my forgetfulness. I really did hate that quality about myself so I started thinking of how to fix it. After all I didn't want to be known by everyone as that forgetfull girl "she can't remember anything". I wanted to be know for the great person I thought I was. Well I gave my flaw a lot of thought and realized there were things I could do to change this habit. I heard that if I looked people in the eye when they spoke and even told me their name that I could remember it. I works! Who knew that if you pay attention to someone when they speak and look them in the eye, you'll actually remember what they say. I also found that keeping my car keys in my hand and looking at them before I shut the door will keep me from locking my keys in the car (that happened more than once). I also stop and go through a checklist in my head before I leave the house or grocery store or anyother place I may be leaving to make sure I didn't forget anything. All of this has become second nature now, It's easy to keep track of everything, and needless to say I'm not known as the "forgetful girl" anymore.